Today marks the 10 year anniversary of the death of one of my best childhood friends. Kelly ann boyd passed away on June 24th 1998 due to a tragic freak train accident. She was just a few months shy of 16 years old. It seems like it happened yesterday, and all of a sudden 10 years have gone. I'm not exactly sure where they have gone.

Just goes to show how short life is, and how it can fly by you in a minute if you aren't careful.

I'm enjoying and living life for you Kel, for all those moments and milestones you were never able to live. I love you.

an update of sorts...I guess

Went to the doctor for my first physical since 2005, with a myriad of problems. Came out with a clean bill of health, various referrals to other docs and some drugs! Nice! Chatted a bit about my anxiety and how its pretty in control now, lets see if we can keep it that way. I do have some weirdo cyst on the back of my head that I need removed. its of pretty decent size, half inch or so. But totally not noticeable under my pounds of hair. I'm afraid of having it removed =/ Im afraid of a 15 min procedure, yet I have somehow managed to push 2 very large babies out of a very small hole. Ironic eh? I'm a big wimp, what can I say?

My baby (the big one) is going to sleep away camp for the first time this summer. Oh that anxiety? yes, plan on losing control. I'm going to be a mess. Put my extra large drug order in now please and thank you. I'm sure I will be more nervous that he will be, and its only 4 days. He is going with his friend Eric, and its an awesome camp. Hell my mom and her brothers all went there waaaay back in the day. Erics parents are staying at the neighboring family campground so I will have a little solace knowing they will be close in case Jacob needs someone thats a little closer than a 2 hr drive away. Its just that things like this are what sends my irrational anxiety out of control. Drowning, storms, archery injuries (yes Im serious) etc etc etc are all bad things that could happen to him. I know I can't keep the boy in a bubble, I just get scared. One of my not so wonderful attributes I inherited from my mom.

Oh well the good news is that he is excited. The bad news is that I will be heavily medicated for 4 long days....oh wait thats not such bad news is it? ;)


Meh Im full of fail tonite, thats all you get for an update. I cannot muster up enough brain power to think of anything else worthwhile to write.


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I know some of you live, and have lived in California....

My best friend is looking to go out there and wants to move to the LA area. He doesnt want to live IN the city, but somewhere around maybe north or northwest of the city. What are some good areas for him to look in that general area....he doesnt want to live in a dive or a scary area haha. I need some suggestions for him because I'm trying to help him find a place!

thanks <3

So my best friend is moving to California, and is traveling this month to go look at apts n whatnot. he really wants me to go with him for a few days, but I told him I could not afford it. He now offered to pay for half of my roundrtip flight and for the entire hotel. So that would only be 180 for me to go to San Diego for a long weekend. I really want to go, and I know he doesn't want to travel alone. I dont know how Kevin would feel about this. Its hard because he works long hours and leaves early early in the morning so i'm the one who gets the kids up and ready and to wherever they need to be. So IF I did go we would have to get his mom to help in the mornings to get the kids ready and bring them to school and daycare. It would only be friday and monday, and knowing her she would just take the day off. I dunno tho =/ Kevin hasnt even been alone for a whole night with the both of them. granted ive gone out for a few hours but thats about it. Caleb is also very much a mommys boy, I would be afraid about how he would act. I would also miss him dearly. But seriously, when else would I have a chance to relax CHILDLESS for 3 days? NEVER!

I am so conflicted.

Advice, should I go? its only a long weekend

or should I stay.


::EDIT::

The more I think about it the more sad and upset I get thinking about leaving Caleb, Maybe thats a sign that I shouldn't go. Or maybe Im just really hormonal. I also dont like flying without Kevin. I haven't flown without him, well since I was 13 and well I didn't know him then. Maybe I should just take these sad and scared feelings as a sign and stay home. I really don't have the money to spend on food and the flight and whatnot anyways. Dan will be dissapointed, but I dunno, I have a family and they need me more than he does...right?

Still very conflicted. This edit did nothing haha

Finally the godforsaken cupcakes haha

(the camera is working, but the screen is still screwed and I'm still mad)

Well I made rainbow cupcakes using Ariannas recipe, with my own homemade buttercream frosting, and I was going to take a picture of them...but my camera isn't working. Why you ask? Because stupid Kevin was supposed to be watching the baby so I could have a godforsaken minute to myself, but he fell asleep and I walked in on the baby sucking on my camera. Nice. Now it will turn on but none of the buttons work and the screen is all messed up. Not only that but he clearly wasn't watching the baby. I understand he was tired, I get tired too but I never fall asleep while he is on the bed with me. This time he just got the camera, but what if he fell off the bed? Got something more dangerous.

And the best thing is, its my fault. How that works dont ask me.

Fucking men.

Im going to drown my anger in some delicious and very aesthetically pleasing cupcakes. I would LOVE to show you a picture, but alas I can't because kevin is a dickhead


blargh

::EDIT::

The camera is kinda working now, although the screen is all sorts of fucked up. It still doesnt matter, its the point that he acted like a fucking jerk about all of this and blamed me. Blah he should buy me a new camera and be stuck with this shitty one. Won't happen =/

Caleb has learned to squint. He copies you when you do it and he thinks it is funny. Subsequently he has also learned how to throw a tantrum, and that is not quite as cute.

here is my squinty eyed baby

Im lazy, check out my web gallery for pics

http://gallery.mac.com/adi00

Tub time, spring is here, and Washington Dc are new galleries. LOOK!


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I also posted them all on facebook if you are my friend there and wanna check em out

we are home. expect a large picture dump soon!

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Baaaah need coffee!!

Srsly though we are leaving for DC in like half an hour. Ill have my macbook and cell if anyone needs me.

Adi00@mac.com

I will be posting pics!

Miss me!

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We had an awesome Easter yesterday. The boys looked adorable, and Caleb has found a new love....plastic easter eggs.

So here is our picture adventure of Easter 2008

http://www.mywedding.com/kevinandadi09


Our wedding site. Lame so far, but I'll add more when we get more planning done!

Lil Man is fully mobile. he crawls and is pulling himself up on things. Oy ve Im not ready for a baby on the go haha

comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. Afterward, post this in your journal and give out some letters of your own.

Lola gave me the wonderful C

1. Caleb
2. cookie dough
3. Coach
4. Caramel apples
5. Cakebatter ice cream from Coldstone! double c!
6. Cold beer haha
7. Crayons
8. Christmas
9. Chicken
10. Crafting

New pics of da baby behind the cut!!


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My childs arms do not work haha. The poor lil guy is trying to crawl so badly. he gets up on his hands and knees and moves his knees, hell he can push his whole body up on his toes. But he cannot move his arms haha. Ive tried to help him and he just faceplants into the floor haha. He is starting to get frustrated, he wants to move so badly. hell he wants to get up and run if he could haha. He is also becoming very vocal, its hilarious. He says mama dada and buba, I know he hasnt associated the meaning to them yet but its still cute to hear. I lol everytime I hear a LJ mom say OMG my 4 month old baby said mama and knows its me! yes your baby is a prodigy haha. They prolly smile at you when they say it because of your reaction. My kid says lots of stuff, and it may have meaning to us but to him he is just pleased with the noise. The other day it sounded like he said heck yeah, it was cute. But srsly I know they arent real words to him yet, that will come. And when it does he prolly wont ever shut up. 7 years later and Jacob still hasnt haha. And Jacob did talk very early, around 10 months. By a year and a half he was saying small sentences.

Oh and my giganto baby finally had a Dr appt, after like 3 months of no health ins ( i know shame on me) He weighs 20 lbs and is 28 inches long. 75th percentile for both. Hes a lil beefcake haha.


so thats sufficient for baby rambling. Srsly other than wedding planning and the kids I have no life. Oh I lie, I went to a concert on saturday night and had beer poured in my hair. Yup thats about it though.


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oh hay mac users haha

Um i need help, how the hell do I use an image hosted on .mac on say like livejournal?


I am teh stupidz with muh new Mac cuz I havent used a Mac in a good 10 years. Pc has corrupted me, bleh!

oh happy day, Caleb is getting his first tooth. Now he will be successful in his conquest to bite my face off. Yes my child likes to chew on my face. Screw teething rings when you have human flesh to practice chewing on.

In other happier news, well happy for me. I finally got my new computer. I took some of my refund monies and bought myself a Macbook. After a good 2 years of having to share a crappy PC with Kevin, I now have my own computer again. I also splurged and bought myself the iPod touch haha. I gave my 30 gig to Kev so I could get a new one lol. I love being able to splurge...like the once a year I actually get to do it.


Oh and I think we have our wedding date, well Im 98% sure. October 24th 2009. We just have to send our deposit in and we are set to go.


So that is my epic update, Im sure you were all on the edges of your seats haha.



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